this is what im feeling at the moment. hopeless pointed in the direction of finding that one guy. ive been through trial and error with this. it just seems like every guy is the same. just different body and name. it drives me up the wall. i really think its makin me depressed that ive yet to have a boyfriend and im in the 11th grade. i find it pathetic. but others may agree that its only fate. i mean i feel like thats the only part of life ive yet to adventure through. to have a boy to call my own, to have someone to talk to at night....to just know you have that person says alot. and i see it all around me. some of my closest friends have boyfriends and i wanna know what it feels like. but i try to feed myself bullshit and try to be positive and humble. and yes ive tried but it comes to a point where i feel like its pointless.
alright quick story. so i meet this guy and ive known him now for a month and we start talking on the phone at night and it makes me happy cuz it gives me hope that maybe...just maybe that something could come out of it. b/c 1. hes really cute 2. family is amazing 3. & ive never had a b/f. so its perfect. and i always would look forward to hiss calls. but soon enough it gets to the point that he says hes gonna call and he never calls. and you know whattts funny ? thats what ever guy sayssssssss & does. therfore it drains my hope. and i become hopeless. and im so sick of being lonelyyyy. idk. i know im depressed tho forsure. im at the brink of crying. i hate this feeling. any advice ? givve it to me.
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